One of the Costliest Decisions

Last post I said that resigning as a pastor was one of the best decisions I have ever made. Simply because of Jesus. I have been able to experience Jesus more and the ramifications have been life changing. 

However, on the side of that same coin of resigning as a pastor was and still is one of costliest decisions I have ever made. 

Before I resigned here was the list of what I thought it would cost me.

1. Change of job

2. Change of identity 

3. Change of platform 

4. Change of money

5. Change of time

6. Change of church model

7. Against the tide 

8. Risk of failure 

9. Risk of hurting church family

This got real. I knew there was a price but I wanted to follow Jesus.

I decided the value of Jesus was worth more than the value of what I had or was pursuing. 

But something that I didn’t realize at the time was that those things above are still costly. I still have to die to those things/that path and follow Jesus. 

So after two years, here’s my list which has overlap to the above list but some further insight and additions. 

1. People not understanding what the heck you are doing or approve 

2. Loss of feeling used by God and experience intense pressure from myself that I need to do more for Jesus instead of resting that obeying Jesus according to Scriptures is enough 

3. Fellow pastors/believers say that I am lazy, God wants me to go back to ministry, my vision is not good enough, I’m lost 

4. Intense depression and suicidal attacks, demonic oppression 

5. Loss of half our income (making a third of what I used to make) and loss of paying for things we used to afford 

6. To be honest, an attack on my pride, strive for fame, being needed, self respect, identity, because people used to come to me get direction from me, give me praise, etc. 

7. Crisis of faith of someone I know 

Choosing to follow Jesus by resigning was and is still is one of the costliest decisions I have made. But Jesus is worthy and worth it. I would do it again and each day I am trying to do so.

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